You know what? It has always been very difficult for me to understand how people say no to anything or anyone so easily. Whether it is about sharing my Wi-Fi password or helping someone complete their assignment; I am unable to say a ‘no’ most of the times. I don’t know what happens to me when someone asks for my help on something, I just cannot turn them down. Even if I could, it would take a whole lot of processing to decide on how to deny!
I know sometimes people could just use me to get their things done and trust me; whenever anything like that has happened I have always known. Every time when I find out something like that has conspired, I decide not to say ‘yes’ anymore; but I always fail. As a child, I felt that helping others, doing something for others makes everyone happy. Because everytime I helped my brother complete his homework, everytime I helped my friend learn those little dance steps, I always got a grateful smile in return. No doubt, I still receive those grateful smiles from people I help and that is the reason why I became habituated of never denying to anyone. But as I grow up, as I move forward in life, I feel that there are people who just want to get to a summit. I notice that not everyone asking for your help really cares for you and not every single thing to be done for others needs to be prioritized over everything else. I feel that I should start accepting the fact that at times, I can have a bigger fish to fry and I don’t need to help everyone for everything.
Now that I have decided so firmly, I’ll start with saying a ‘no’ to my roommate to accompany her to watch a movie till midnight!
Determined as ever,
Once Upon A Time Reloaded, The Second Diary Entry